12 weeks today! Just got back from visiting the Dr's office and meeting our Midwife. She was amazing, had such a great energy about her and answered so many of my questions. We're opting for as close to a natural childbirth as possiable and she was more than supportive with my ideas and offered suggestions as well. I got to hear the Baby's heart rate; 160/minute. Healthy and strong.
It was an emotional visit for me. After hearing the heart beat, I was left alone in the room until the Midwife came in. As I sat there I started to cry. Tears of joy and sorrow all at once. While I was listening to this new life's heart beat, I can't help but think of everyone sitting at Gram's house. They too, listeing to life, life that is coming to an end. People talk all the time about the circle of life, myself included. But I never expected to experience it this closely. In some ways it's a blessing, a strength and reassurance for me, that life ends and life begins. That doesn't change the sadness in my heart. I know Baby Stutz, along with Chiara and Nina will know all about their Great Grammy Gert, that her memory will last long after she has left this earth.
I was thinking of this irony today as well. I am so glad you got to come home and tell Gram are expecting. The timing was almost unreal. Love you. Stay strong and keep posting! XO
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